... Fill the feeling


It's lonely here, but I am not alone.
You're a light in the dark, and reminder of everything I've always wanted.
But how can I trust it?
Give it all up?
Believe it is what we want it to be.

My heart aches for the idea
My feet want to chase the dream
But does anyone ever get what they always wanted?

Could it be real?
Or another fake, trying to fill the voids we are feeling?
I can only put one foot in front of the other
Quietly trusting

Again

... instead of loving and accepting


All these societal rules imposed on us about how we SHOULD behave and how we SHOULD think - enforced over and over again by those living within the society. Enforced by their judgments, fear and lack of understanding of WHY the person would break said rules.

The reason(s) someone rebels or breaks rules is because they are lacking fulfillment or because they are protecting others. And I don't think correcting either of those things is wrong.

Is fulfillment and total happiness something we should suppress? Be ashamed of? Is protecting someone wrong? The hurt feelings of associates comes from dishonesty. The dishonesty comes from fear of judgment and persecution by the system and those in it. Heinous crimes/cheating/lies are really a need to fulfill something deeper - like a need for love or acceptance, among other things - and if we are provided those things, then there is no need to rebel or lie. 

But instead of loving and accepting unconditionally, we judge and laugh at from the outside, without having the whole story which leaves little trust by the individual to open up and ask for what they really need. And the cycle continues - because society has us trained/controlled well.

Keep them dissonant. Keep them fearful. Convince them that different is wrong. Do these things and we won't have to control them, they will control each other.

Just another M.D., who knows nothing more than he’s been told to know

The old elevator dings my arrival to the second floor of the medical facility in Anderson, SC. I take a deep breath in a futile attempt to s...